The power of structure hits home with me at this time of year, when we Jews beat our collective chest for a litany of alphabetized sins. The prayerbook list has never fully resonated with me, but the structure gave me the incentive to write my own. And, in hopes that it will inspire you to write an alphabetized something or other, here it is ...
My
Alphabet of Failings – Yom Kippur, 2014
by Jan Sokoloff Harness
This
year, I confess alone, my alphabet of failings:
For
the sin of anger against those who
challenge me
And
for the sin of belittling those I
don’t understand
For
the sin of criticizing without
caring
And
for the sin of doubting the strength
of love
For
the sin of enjoying what I shouldn’t
have
And
for the sin of purposefully finding
fault
For
the sin of greed when I have so much
And
for the sin of hating beautiful
strangers
For
the sin of needlessly imagining
problems
And
for the sin of joking to avoid a
truth
For all these sins, oh God of
forgiveness,
Forgive me, pardon me, grant me
atonement.
For
the sin of kindness too often
withheld
And
for the sin of loving in measured
touches
For
the sin of malice toward those who
are richer
And
for the sin of nourishing my worst
intentions
For
the sin of observing when I could be
helping
And
for the sin of pretending I am less
than I am
For
the sin of quitting when I still
have fight
And
for the sin of not resting when I am
exhausted
For
the sin of saying it doesn’t matter
And
for the sin of thinking he can
read my mind.
For all these sins, oh God of
forgiveness,
Forgive me, pardon me, grant me
atonement.
For
the sin of not cutting the umbilical
cord
And
for the sin of not visiting my
parents enough
For
the sin of not weeping, to prove my
strength
And
for the sin of never forgiving my ex
For
the sin of yearning to alter
time
And
for the sin of repenting at the zero
hour.
For all these sins, oh God of
forgiveness,
Forgive me, pardon me, grant me
atonement.
2 comments:
NEXT YEAR I will write my own (and I am sure will be listing procrastination). But until then I will enjoy reading yours!
Jan, thank you for sharing your deeply personal prayer. You are a marvelous woman and a treasured friend.
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